Friday, 2 May 2014

Heartbreak warfare

'I just want a simple love.'

For those of you who are familiar with this phrase, having heard it a thousand times over an argument, what can you say to rebut it? Nothing. It left her to ponder, in which life does one have a simple life to love someone? Is life easy? Nope; is love easy? *Are you kidding me*

Those words still rang loudly in her ears, thinking of the naïveté of that sentence, he uttered ever so simply, which his chin pointed downwards, as he hieved a big sigh, hopelessly.

*Rummaging through the pages where they last argued in her head.*

'I should have listened to my parents, to study instead of having a girlfriend!' He puffed angrily.

It really was heartbreaking to see her breathe through those words. The words that sent her into big sobs. Streams of tears ran down her cheeks, making way for a gush of waterfall to submerge that small cheeks of hers.

His rage, was like that of his dad. He's seen it. He's doing it, subconsciously. She had never seen this side of him before; this ball of fury was so intense it wasn't possible to tame. It was that side of him she has to accept and hopes that he changes for the better. It is the side of him she did not sign up for when she first met him.

Tuesday, 27 August 2013

Falling out of love. No falling in. Deeper.

Frustration, fear and forceful thoughts overwhelmed the very being of this girl, so incredibly happy, and unable to believe the events that have been unravelling for the past 3 weeks with the last one week being extremely unexpected and delightful. Feelings of ecstasy and uncontrollable amounts of laughter, shielded the very core of guilt, unfounded sense of relief, and unremedied spins of giddiness.

2 seconds of spontaneity
2 minutes of talking
2 hours of laughter
2 days of texting
2 weeks of prayers
3 weeks of uncertainty
4 weeks running
5 weeks losing all doubts and fear

Loving someone who gives you a reason to hang on to something as fragile as life, feels...

incredibly blissful.


Monday, 15 July 2013

Nights like this

Hurried footsteps down the pavements, people I don't see but the constant gust of wind constantly reminds me of people, a cacophony of noise.

Drowning in a sea of people, and I feel terribly alone.

Free, yet busy with a million things on my mind. and the one thing that I have constantly on my mind.


I had that moment again. Well, correction: I almost had that moment. You know the one where I wish my hand was in yours, bringing you everywhere, to see everything that I see, to breathe the same cold welcoming air of the land down under.

I see your face everywhere I go. I bring you everywhere. For a brief, brief moment, I felt that being there would make me feel like you were there. But before I could really entertain the thought, I knew you weren't.

You aren't here.

Sometimes I don't know if this is the best decision for us. But time and again I have always convinced myself that all these we had, have been sheer bliss. Bliss.

This is a road of learning, it's a journey. And I'm learning how to be without you. I think I'm doing okay. I really don't talk about you or mope about your absence, but you are on my mind all the time. I think it only gets to me when I have got absolutely nothing to do and I'm forced to come to terms that it's yet another day that we are apart.

Or you know, when there are nights like this- when I'm swallowed by songs that remind me of you.

It gives me life. To have known you. To still be able to talk to you everyday.

It gives me hope. That happiness can be achieved. Even when the time is wrong.


Thursday, 4 July 2013


Hi guys!

And so I was on a hunt for a pair of shades for him. It all started from the day we started taking selfies with Ren’s shades.

It wasn’t long before I went, ‘ Know what? This is it. We shall get a pair of shades for each other.’ But what kind of shades? So, we went to an optical shop and tried on a few pairs of RayBans, Aviators to be specific. The 3025 big frames looks sooo good on him *teary eye

He had on the silver frame while I love the gold frame on myself!


The Aviators cost an arm and a leg. So we left, dejected but optimistic that maybe other optical shops would offer a better price.

I even went to the extent of asking my friend to source from Sibu, at East Malaysia because it is somehow much cheaper there (for whichever reason). Unfortunately, that didn’t fall through.

There were also sites that were selling them at prices waaay below the market rate and I’m pretty damn sure they aren’t originals.  The way they marketed themselves was that they offer ‘100% customer satisfaction’. Seriously guys? The only reason why you can claim that is because you have no other form of marketing credibility! No certificate of authentication and real packaging to boot. Unless it is sought after for photo shoots or if you just want it but you are just too broke for it, it really isn’t worth ruining your eyesight for a pair of stylish fakes (shall elaborate on the reasons in a later post).

From my experience, nice and established brands aren’t cheap. But I was determined to find a pair for him, so badly. Yes, the things you would do for your loved-ones…

On a bright sunny day, I was reading Cheesie’s blog and I found and omg it was like a dream come true. They have a magnificiently vast array of glasses and sunglasses, from brands like Tom Ford, Alexander McQueen, Balenciaga, Hugo Boss, Dior, D&G, Fendi, RayBans, Marc Jacobs, Moschino, Prada and the list goes on. One would be so spoilt for choice but I had my sight set on ze RayBans! TEEHEEE :D The discounts go as big as 50% some of the best brands! My RayBans has like 45% discount. FAR OUT!

What’s even better is that they offer FREE shipping WORLDWIDE, to your door step! This saves online shoppers like me the hassle and cost to drive out, pay for parking and walk to the store! SmartBuyGlasses are located everywhere including USA, Canada, Australia, Japan and Singapore. Below are the links to the RB3025, the one I got.

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Payment can be made using AMEX, MasterCard, Visa, JCB and PayPal! Easy Peazy :D

My experience with SmartBuyGlasses was that their customer service is impeccable. Second to none in the world of shopping online. Not only are they prompt in their replies, they are polite and efficient as well! It was a pleasant experience dealing with SmartBuyGlasses and I would gladly recommend them to anyone looking to buy any shades or glasses.

Happy shopping! :D


Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Love out of pain

I sit tight, don't want to miss the show
I hang on, don't want to miss my prime
Cos time flies, when your heart meets mine

Stay a while, stroke her to sleep
Stay a little longer, watch her breathe
But tide rides far, watching his shadow
shrink and
desire distant

So I walk along
this deserted path

He peeks
He shadows me
Walks behind me
Walks with me

A smile
a laugh
a kiss
a touch

Fingers intertwined
Skin touch lips burn
Breath me in
Gaze deep
Hurt deeper

Dance with me
Dance while we can
Dance out of pain
Dance cos we must

Come a little closer
I'm in thoughts
I write you
I'm in love

You will be the sun
and I will be the sea
and love, the shoreline
where you and I meet

Let Him
sweep us away
to somewhere

to somewhere
only we know

Tuesday, 4 June 2013


Watch my back so I make sure
you are right behind me
as before
the night before

Dry my eyes so you won't know
Dry my eyes so I won't show
I know you are right behind me

And don't you let me go tonight
Don't let me go tonight
Just don't let me go tonight

Walking the surface of this town
with high heels above the ground
figures past
quick steps
wind slurs
scent smoke carbon
unpleasant uneasiness

Keep me safe
until the night
falls, till
My heart falls
My strength fails
My hope falters

We know them all
I know it all
Stay put and play along
Cos I'm looking for my friend

I dry my eyes
I dry my eyes
falling deeper by the hour
don't make me fall deeper now

Just let me go tonight

'Red carpet'

This was taken at the Pre annual dinner. I was the first of the 9 to be ready.
JW Marriot is fantabulously awesome :) The beds were ultra comfy and had a double door toilet.
We licked ourselves to sleep after a long night!
#Peiyi #Janet #Yu-anne

Red carpet?

So, I turned to the back to check you out.

Check the mock set-ups in the background!

Giuseppe Zanoti. Took hell lot of convincing to get mum to get this bag! Look how well made it is!


I just had to end this post with a pack of Cigars. I love how it juxtaposes everything I blog about.